What if...

What if I didn't do what I was supposed to do today? What if I said screw it to everyone? What if I gave into temptation? What if I just let things be and be open to change? Perhaps it would come to me if I didn't "what if" so much. I am working on being more open to life. What things fall in my lap instead of what things my OCD tendencies have in mind. Do you know how hard that is? So hard some days, especially since I wasn't blessed with any kind of patience in the world. Biting my tongue is another one I am trying to work on. No more what if's and listening instead of shooting off my mouth at the wrong time. So far I can't say I have failed but I definitely have a C-. Wonder if there is any advice to get a B+ or A- average on this.

Let me know if you have it. The other what if's in my mind cause their own sort of havoc so I try to ignore them also. Some days that is harder than other days. Today is a hard day. Wanting my what if's today!!!