What if...

What if I didn't do what I was supposed to do today? What if I said screw it to everyone? What if I gave into temptation? What if I just let things be and be open to change? Perhaps it would come to me if I didn't "what if" so much. I am working on being more open to life. What things fall in my lap instead of what things my OCD tendencies have in mind. Do you know how hard that is? So hard some days, especially since I wasn't blessed with any kind of patience in the world. Biting my tongue is another one I am trying to work on. No more what if's and listening instead of shooting off my mouth at the wrong time. So far I can't say I have failed but I definitely have a C-. Wonder if there is any advice to get a B+ or A- average on this.

Let me know if you have it. The other what if's in my mind cause their own sort of havoc so I try to ignore them also. Some days that is harder than other days. Today is a hard day. Wanting my what if's today!!!

By Robert Frost

This is one of my most favorite poems.  I like the last two lines the most.  Enjoy, Mindy.

POEMS

BLISS
rolling hills,
snowy slopes,
elderly oaks,
long prairie grasses
sneak through the snow.
animal prints
mess its decor.
winds swirl,
sun caresses,
the bends and curves,
pink orange and purple
smear the horizon.
some winter resort,
no my home!


TREASURES
brown eyes,
ornery smiles,
dimpled cheeks,
hair tousled from sleep.
backpacks flying,
shoe tying,
bus waiting,
kiss before "they" see.
bickering mouths,
playful teases,
small battles,
chases around the house.
sweet kisses,
snuggle requests,
bedtime rituals,
lay with me please.
treasured memories
a mother's world.

a message in a bottle

Hey you. Are you aware that the world may end tomorrow and you are still in some time warp from your journal, writing the same things you did 15 years ago. Same ideals, same complaints, nice job moving forward there slick.

This would be my subconscious talking to my conscious mind after I reread some of my journal entries from at least 15 years ago. Thanks for reminding me I am still stuck like chuck.

Note for new year, GET UNSTUCK ALREADY.

Looking for motivational or inspirational help to move forward instead of sitting in the backward motion. Also giving advice, don't go reread your journals, may cause heavy drinking.